An Ol' Broad's Ramblings
Well, to get right down to it… I haven’t been feeling up to snuff lately. Hence, no Saturday links last week, and not a whole lot of posting going on. No, we have no idea what’s going on, and likely won’t unless one of us wins the lottery. And ya can’t win if ya don’t play. We don’t play. My insurance premiums have increased so much (due to ObamaCare!), I had no choice but the increase the deduction, and out of pocket nonsense just to bring it down $2000. Lemme tell ya, nearly $13,000 a year for insurance that doesn’t pay for much of anything is getting a bit absurd. No doctor visits are covered. Totally out of pocket. Very few tests are covered either, and they didn’t pay a dime on either my knee replacement or my last heart cath. My bone doc is no longer even accepting my insurance, likely because they were so slow to pay ANYTHING, for anyone, or even send denials. sigh… First they approved the surgery, then decided..AFTER it was done, they didn’t. Dipwads!
So, having over priced tests to find out what is going on is pretty much out of the question. So, I suffer. Yay me! Increased dizziness, which meds are not controlling (starting to feel like a ‘junkie’ with the numerous medications they’re trying out on me), constant physical pain, and the inability to stand for more than a few minutes is making life a wee bit unpleasant. Oh, and let’s not forget the occasional weird overlapping vision, and that bizarre black, yellow, and pink, geometrical design that shows up on an increasing basis in the peripheral of my right eye. That’s always a lot of fun! Just how much does a CT scan cost these days anyway? That’s what my heart doc is trying to put off cuz of the cost. sigh… Can’t have MRIs anymore….well, unless …. does it drain the pace maker battery, or just rip it out of my chest? No one has ever said….but I just can’t have ‘em. Oh, with the new technology, I MIGHT be able to, but no one is willing to take the chance that I might burst into flames while in the contraption. Kind of like my daughter walking into a church. Heh. The oddball sleeping patterns aren’t helping much either. There is some speculation that my brain isn’t getting enough oxygen, but no indication of why, hence the want of a CT, cuz all the regular tests have shown no blockage.
So, you see….it’s not because I’m not paying attention to the world around me, or that I don’t care. It’s cuz I feel like crap, and just am not really up to putting a great deal of thought into much of anything. Oh, I do have good days now and then, but they seem to be getting fewer and farther between. Talk about annoying as all get out! UGH! What’s more annoying? Having only been to church a couple of times in the last few months. grrrrrrrr I miss being there….a LOT!
Now, ya know. This has been going on for several months now. I tell ya…if it’s not one thing, it’s another! And the last couple of years have been a real riot. /snark